So tomorrow I begin my 5 day Purium cleanse and to be honest, I'm freaking out a little. Let me break it down for you.

Is Purium healthy? The healthiest. Does it help you detox and cleanse your system of all those nasty things you eat (or in my case, drink) in any given week? You bet. Does it include all the vitamins, minerals, antioxidants and protein you need to fuel your body and run at top performance? Sure thing. Is it all natural and organic so you're not putting harmful chemicals in your body? Mmmhmmm. Are any of these the reason why I'm doing it? Absolutely not.

Let's get real. I'm doing this because I want to be skinny. Since I was old enough to start comparing my body to those in magazines, I've wanted to be skinny. Whether I was at my heaviest (middle school is the worst) or my lightest (getting married is a good motivator), I've always wanted to be skinnier. 

I think I have the working out part down. I know that lifting heavy objects twice a week (thanks Joey) helps raise my metabolism and create fat burning muscle. In between that I'm pretty consistent in making sure I move throughout the day, go on walks and always take the stairs. I've figured that out. It's the diet part that I have a problem with. And here's why:

Things I enjoy eating:

• Donuts
• Ice cream
• Crunchy things
• Salty things
• Fried things
• Did I mention donuts?

Things I don't enjoy eating:

• Vegetables
• Fruits
• Basically anything that's not on the list above

So now that you know the backstory, let's go back to the beginning. Here's why I'm freaking out. Clearly, I don't like healthy things and I want to be skinny. I tried the Purium cleanse before and failed miserably halfway through day 2. Am I painting a clear picture for you?

Let me get a little clearer for you. This is what I'm supposed to sustain on for 5 days. FIVE WHOLE DAYS worth of food is sitting right there. Are you kidding me!?

But I know something must be done. With the nice weather comes BBQ's, winery tours and nights out with friends. All of that over indulgence means those skinny jeans are feeling really tight. The breaking point came a few weekends ago when my super stretchy legging-like jeans felt so tight that I had to sit with them unbuttoned at the dinner table. Ugh.

So maybe my true motivator behind this cleanse makes me seem vain and shallow. But who cares? At least I'm going about this in a way that's healthy for my body and not detrimental. And if you're really honest with yourself, seeing the inches and pounds shed off is the best part of any diet. Looking in the mirror and liking what you see is what really gets you excited and pushes you through the hard parts.

Below are my starting stats. And yes, I am publishing this for everyone to see (kill me now...) because I know it will help me stay accountable, and honest, and really see the results (if any). So, here we go!

Current Stats:
Weight: 140.6 - UGH!
Waist - 28.5 inches
Hips - 35 inches
Arms - 11.5 inches
Legs - 21 inches